26.8 RE-Conciliation.

I've never truly reconciled those nine months that I've spend mostly in training room preparing to make one of my dreams come true.

Did I lose something? Yep, a lot.
Did I sacrificed a lot? Yep, I did.
Did I learned something? Yes, only one thing.

Some things cannot be achieved only by pure effort and stubbornness. Some things require a bit of talent, a bit of ... the thing that makes you special, that makes you do things only few can do.

I think that I don't lack the will to do something, I lack the other part which I just wrote above.

Life is not a child story, where the weak wins in the end with pure effort and strong heart. The truth is that if you don't have to guts, skills to do it, you try and it's not working out... well... either just give up, or hit harder with your head and try to bring down the wall with it. Just remember... your time is limited. You can't just push rewind and get back, and try again. What's done is done. The time you sacrificed will never be given back to you. People who left because you had ambition to do something won't come back so easily... Things which were broken are not so easy to fix.

And when you can't fix whats broken... you'll go insane.

// stay safe